Violently Happy |
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Date >> Saturday, September 1, 2001 >> Time >> 11:27 a.m.
...ever get the feeling that no one is listening?! I do. I don't even know why I have a pita... no one reads it! Hah, yea. I guess that's the way life works. I'm so incredibly bored, and I need to take a shower and get dressed soon. I get to see Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back today, so I'm incredibly happy. I just realized, Helena had one of my Bjork CD's still... hrm, I'll have to get it back soon. Hopefully Monday or something. I like to go for walks at night, I don't care what kind of things lurk at night, the walks calm me down. I am... so out of it. I hope I get an A on my summer reading report, Amanda told me that it was short... but I mean, I wrote as much as I saw fit. I hope... I really need to do good in school this year, you just don't understand, this year is the most important. I can already tell that I'm going to suck in Math. *grr*. I am horrible in Math, maybe someone will help me out. I hope so, I need serious help with Math. I suck! I like English... and I like History, I wish we had History this year, but sadly, we do not. This makes me mad/sad. I dance around in the rain. I rolled down my hill today, because I had to put something in the mailbox, then I felt like rolling down the hill to get back home... so I did. It was so much fun! ..like someone... in love... Yea. I'm... dumb. Time to go and get ready for the movies. none of my friends are online. Cry. -Fucked- Date >> Friday, August 31, 2001 >> Time >> 08:54 p.m.
... and of course, I sit here listening to Bjork. Hop on the lonely train and do the... lonely thing. Sigh, yes. Danielle is lonely. Oh Well, I guess I should start getting used to it. ::walks around a table 50 times:: Wow, dizzy. School started a few days ago, and it is going well. I like most of my classes, with the acception of a few, of course. My friends are all wonderful, and... and... I don't know. I hung out with Amanda today. We went to see Rat Race, that was funny. I fell over laughing. It... was funny. I'm so superly bored right now, though. Tomorrow I'm going to see Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back with my home-boys. Okay... yea. Hahaha. I just can't wait. Yesturday I cut my lip open, and it was bleeding, I mean, gushing blood! It hurt, and I cried. Tears and blood. I'm not supposed to talk about it. 104fest on Monday, tons of fun! =) I... just don't know. Crying because I need you... Yea, Bjork. I always listen to Bjork, what a freak I am. Shoot me, kay?! ::waits for the bullet to hit her:: I'm such a lonely bastard. I'm pathetic, but of course, not a bastard... I mean, I'm a girl! My mom was talking to me about the prom... blah. I doubt i'll even get a date. Sigh. Damnit Danielle, get off of the self-pity train and join the lonely train! Okay! Damn me. i'm such a loser. I walked through the desert with one shoe today... it was fun. I like... nature. Trees, water... waterfalls... you know... water that falls. I like it all. I like grass, rocks, the ocean... you know, a big giant body of water... and I like sand and dirt, and mud... and Treeees! Wait, I said trees.. I like mountains... I like it all. I still have a dream. A dream of living in a giant house by the ocean, living alone. Well, So long for now. -Danielle- Date >> Tuesday, August 28, 2001 >> Time >> 09:15 a.m.
...school, is what I meant, of course! I don't want to go back, but I must. There's no turning back from it, but I will always have ... nothing! This is a pointless entry, but i'm bored out of my mind. ::smiles:: It smells like shampoo. I miss the beach. It's so pretty at the beach at night. It makes my happy! (`Sunshine, On My Shoulder Makes Me Happy, Like Mel Gibson` -Tiffie) Yep. Life is a good thing, right?! Of course! I love rain, rain is happy. Everyone smile at the rain, and it will rain gold... okay, so I lied! Can't cut my head off for that. I wrote in my written diary last night a lot, I stayed up really late, because it's the last night I could before school starts... tomorrow. Ack. It's really early right now. I can't sleep at all. Last night, I fixed my Josie and the Pussycats soundtrack somehow, but it skips over most of the songs... but number four still plays, I like that song. Feeling bad, about myself again today The usual. Dancing around, and spinning, in the rain or on the beach is fun. Don't let them take your childhood from you! Never let them! -Danielle The Dancing Muffin- Date >> Monday, August 27, 2001 >> Time >> 10:19 p.m.
..smarter than one. I'm listening to The Decline. Great song, great meaning, great band. I bought Josie and the Pussycats the other day. No one cares, and that's why i'm telling you all. I really want to see Bubble boy, maybe i'll drag my mom to see it with me tomorrow, although I told her that we were going to see The Princess Diaries ...but I already saw that. I bought new clothes today, mostly from Gap. I used to loathe that place... except for their denim! Haha, sorry. I bought very neat jeans, and they're long, and they fit so nicely, and they make me happy. I also bought a plain, black shirt. Amanda will kill me for that. tomorrow, I was hoping to hang out with Amanda, but now I have to go shopping for more clothes. I tried to call her and make some kind of plans, and I left a message. (I left a message! Be proud, world!) Her birthday was August 19th, and I haven't seen her. I have a lovely gift for her, I really hope she likes it. I'm almost done with my book, Dragonwyck... actually, not really. It's really long, but I plan on skimming through the end. I lost the questions that we have to answer for school, so I'm screwed. This is a long entry, and no one cares! =) I live by the ocean, and during the night, I dive into it, down to the bottom, underneath all currents, and drop my anchor, this is where I'm staying, this is my home -Bjork Bjork is such a great singer, though a lot of people think otherwise. Well, I start school on Wednseday. Sucks, doesn't it? -For the Lack of Anything To Do- -Danielle Date >> Thursday, August 9, 2001 >> Time >> 12:51 p.m.
Yea... I said a naughty word. Tiffany made this layout, and I thank her! She's got skills... everyone knows that, eh? Well, me, Tiffie, and Jackie might hang out today. That would be very neat. the Loser Crew, minus one! Heh. Yea, so much fun. I'm bored as of now, and thirsty. I have to return my video, so maybe I should watch it still. (midnight in the garden of good and evil). This weekend is the Trippy Trio sleepover. That aught to be kickin! Yea, I'm a geek. Wait, tomorrow is Friday?! Holy shit, this week has gone by so fast! I had Drivers Ed. Today. It sucked, as usual. I listen to Bjork right now. so, I'll go now. I need to work on making the new me. Heh. Bye -Danielle Date >> Monday, August 6, 2001 >> Time >> 07:21 p.m.
what a day. nothing happened. i did rent a movie. midnight in the garden of good and evil. i'll have to watch it. i talked to tiffany and helena. they're both great people. i'm going camping very soon. do i belong? you always belong. i, i'm sick of people hating me. i hope to make a pact with maria. that way...the world will shine on us all. i wish the world would shine on me. i love shining every once in a while. -Danielle |